CASE # 2:   The Grandmother Experience

It would be a week or more before I sorted out had happened.
 
I had just finished training a woman in Reiki who, at one point, I vaguely suspected may have had some alcohol before class. After we finished and I was alone again at the computer, I suddenly felt - and saw - a grey energy lay gently over my head and forehead. I didn't like it. I immediately whisked it away with my hand - like shooing away a fly. Preoccupied, I paid little attention to the energy surrounding me for the rest of the day. I did notice however, each time I stood up I would nearly pass out. First I would get the spins and then begin to feel my legs start to shake from weakness. Something was seriously wrong.
 
The "spins" continued for the week. I was eating a healthier diet, getting up slowly from sitting positions to avoid the spins and, overall, was feeling a bit better. But still, something was very wrong with me that I could not identify.
 
I spoke in depth to two friends, both nurses, about the possibilities of what might be causing this recent physical behavior. There were plenty of plausible causes and each recommended a visit to a doctor. Intuitively, I did not feel a doctor could help.
 
Being Dead ~ Living in Limbo
During the week I also noticed my thinking was slowly getting depressing. I didn't actually feel depressed but was thinking a lot about death; not about killing myself but rather what it feels like to BE dead. It was slowly becoming clear that I was learning what it felt like to be in a state of "Limbo". In general, I had no motivation, my voice had become lifeless and flat, and I just felt, well, blah... nothing. Nothing excited me, nothing made me happy or even sad. I felt so flat and yet also in "observer" mode. I'd noticed was that my speech had become much slower. I would forget what I was saying when I was in the middle of saying it! I was beginning to think that I was loosing all memory function. I was really going downhill quickly. And still I had not phoned a doctor for some reason.
 
After a week of this misery, I woke up with the two words "Tail Bone" on my mind. I knew it was a gift from Spirit but it quickly got lost in the shuffle of daily life.
 
The Party
Later that evening... we attended a friend's birthday party where 8 of the 10 people there were working mediums. The thought of the two words returned when I was with two other mediums and I were talking before the party got going. I  described the events of the weird energy week and the message I'd heard from Spirit:  "Tail bone". One medium responded that it was "the start of all flow". I understood its relevance and thanked her. While relevant, I knew it was not what Spirit wanted me to understand about their message. I'd continue my quest to understand it.
 
The three of us moved into the kitchen and joined some folks who had arrived during our absence. Once settled in, I mentioned the Spirit message to this larger group and included the previous comment about the tail bone being the source of the flow. Another medium offered a response. She began, “You have to take care of yourself. You're helping many but taking on the energy of others.” I was not surprised to hear that. It had been a busy week. Then she said, "You are clearing others of their influences and not letting go of them." I honed in on her like a laser on a target. "What do you mean?" I asked. She answered my question with a question. "May I give you a healing? "Sure!" I said.
 
The Healing
As soon as she began... I felt several spirits - like little wisps of energy - move up and out of my body. Then she insisted, "You have got to let go of the spirits."
      "I just did. I just saw and felt several move on out. I feel better already!"
     She continued on in silence moving her healing hands around my shoulders. She insisted again, "Let go of the spirit."
     "Who?" I asked.
     "The older woman", she replied.
     "The Grandmother?" It was then everything began to unfold.
 
In a flash of clarity, I remembered that during the Reiki training with that student I had mentioned the term "spirit releasement" to her. She stopped me cold to clarify what it meant. The example I used in the explanation referred to picking up spirits hanging around in a bar while one's defenses were down. The energy began to shift at that point but I ignored it due to our time constraint. Our focus remained on finishing the training.
 
My attention came back to the Spirit Grandmother we were working to release. Both my friend and I understood that she was simply very excited to find someone to be with. She had taught me something very important in my field of work: The feeling of being in Limbo. I thanked her for the experience, for her specific teachings and then continued to work with my friend to send her into the light.
 
Once she was gone, I felt instantly happy again. I was vivacious, bubbly, and my memory was back! My speech was animated and I spoke faster. I could stay with my thoughts and felt great! Friends even mentioned how much healthier I looked.
 
I learned several things through this experience.
1. What being in Limbo is truly like for a Spirit.
2. Just how quickly a spirit can overwhelm us. One must be vigilant about keeping one's protection active. Even though a person may specialize in an area does not mean that they are impervious to the experience at times themselves.
3. I never did call a doctor. They would have served no earthly purpose in this situation.